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My disability and the monotropic fire in me

“Are you disabled?” my therapist asked me, during one of our sessions several months ago. Her question came in response to something I said that, in hindsight, sure sounded like I thought I was disabled. The question made me immediately uncomfortable, and I backed away from the label “disabled”, saying something like, “I wouldn’t go […]

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“Gender is a big itchy sweater”: An autistic man’s reflection on the itchiness of masculinity

Content warning: In this essay, I discuss transphobia and ableism. I also write about a serious car accident I was involved in. —//— “There’s been a great pressure to affirm these children as trans… without appropriate exploration,” said David Bell, a psychiatrist from the United Kingdom, in an April 2022 appearance on the BBC. He […]

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The answer I wish I’d found when I first searched “What is autism?”

Content warning: This post contains a discussion of sexism, racism, and eugenics within autism research and advocacy —//— I’m a weirdo. That’s what everyone says. Sometimes, I don’t know what people mean when they say things, and that can make me feel alone even when there are other people in the room. And all I […]

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Me and my nervous system against the world

Content warning: This post contains a discussion of police brutality  —-//—- I have recently learned that I am autistic. For me, this word – autistic – provides an explanation for a lifetime of confusion about the mismatch between my and others’ perceptions of the world. I am aware, however, that there is profound misunderstanding about […]